Won't fall my nigga, I slip not

instrumental:    • Kanye West x Pete Rock x Joey Bada$$ ...  
Slipknot acapella by Mythical Slader
Jesus lord acapella by Vintfy 5

Songs Used:
- XXXTENTACION - Slipknot (ft. Killstation & Kin$oul)
- Kanye West - Jesus Lord (ft. Jay Electronica)

LYRICS

[Intro]
Uh
Yeah
Well Hello There!
Members Only, Volume...
Volume 3
P. Soul on the track
Uh

[Verse 1]
Lost in the pessimistic state of perception
It's been hard to participate in natural instances and
Due to my history, I don't know what's next for me, but
Keep my composure, fuck over anyone next to me
If dean detriment told me love was for negligent
Motherfuckers that can't seem to keep aware in they head
I'm not self-aware, I'm misled, I'm a hypocrite like the rest
I will kill myself if it benefit all of my fucking friends
I'm sorry, mama, I didn't mean to fucking hurt you
If I could test my worth, I'll show you heaven on this earth
So if alive or in the dirt, I swear to God, you'll be my first priority
Before the hurt, that mean for better or for worse
I said, I didn't mean to fucking hurt you
If I had to test my worth, I'll show you heaven on this earth
So if alive or in the dirt, I swear to God, you'll be my first priority
Before the hurt, that mean for better or for worse
I said

[Bridge]
Won't fall, my nigga, I slip not, uh
Won't fall, my nigga, I slip not, uh
Won't fall, my nigga, I slip not, uh
Won't fall, my nigga, I slip not, uh

[Verse 2]
Sittin' by myself, I'm just thinkin'
About all I've been through, I wish I was dreamin'
Man, it's hard to be an angel when you surrounded by demons
I watched so many people leave
I see 'em change by the season, that's mama's sеasonin'
God got you, the devil's watchin', he just peekin' in
I know I madе a promise that I'd never let the reaper in
But lately, I've been losin' all my deepest friends
And lately, I've been swimmin' on the deepest end
It's just drugs, it ain't no hugs, it ain't no love there
You been down so much you don't even know what's upstairs
Suicidal thoughts got you wonderin' what's up there
And while I introduce the party, you say it's up there
Too many pills, so much potions, so much pain, too many emotions
And everything that you do good, it just go unnoticed
Did He tell you that you good and just stay focused?
Mama, you was the life of the party
I swear you brought life to the party
When you lost your life, it took the life out the party
That woman rode with me like a Harley
Visions of my cousins in a cell really scarred me
Movin' to the hood was like signin' up for the army
'Cause they been killin' *** since *** was watchin' Barney
You want dreams to come true? But I have nightmares
'Cause if that come to life, then I might not be right here
Been in the dark so long, don't know if the light here
But I'm just reaching for the stars like Buzz Lightyear
And now I'm lightyears ahead of those nightmares
I deaded those night terrors when the night clears
And if I talk to Christ, can I bring my mother back to life?
And if I die tonight, will I see her in the afterlife?
But back to reality, where everything's a tragedy
You better have a strategy or you could be a statistic
Little boy dies, he's just one of the mystic
And mama steady crying 'cause she really the victim
And she's getting high and she's getting addicted
And her older boy just stuck with the picture, painted vivid
That's a family portrait, and her daughter just absorbed it
Sixteen, pregnant, baby daddy say she should abort it
But we can't afford it, so she decides to move forward
Baby shower time, father didn't show up
Now she just feeling nauseous like she finna throw up
The water flows down her legs, yeah, it's finna go up
A year done went by, her daughter just turned one
And she's still dependent on her mom
Big brother in the streets, he went and bought him a gun
He want revenge 'cause the pain, feelin' numb
And her mom still doing drugs 'cause that's the only time she feel loved
Is it real love? Do the scars really heal up?
From all the pain that done built up, but they don't feel us
A week done flew by, big bro ridin' then he see the guys
Left his little brother on the side, bleeding from the side
He seein' red, it's like he's bleeding through his eyes
To see him dead, the only thing that'll help the grieving up inside
Even let him get the last meal
He done with the streets after this, this his last kill
He gotta show him that it's that real
He ran up on him with the pipe like, "****, stand still"
"You took my brother life, you made my mother cry"
"Tell me one reason I shouldn't send you up to Christ"
He said, "Go 'head, take my life, I've seen everything but Christ"
Then big bro just blacked out and all you seen was the light...